A few years back, a person had asked me who I was. Considering that he must be joking by asking me such a silly question, I had repliedย sarcastically that it was time for him to consult a doctor after having forgotten my name within two minutes. The man smiled at me and said that he had asked a difficult question to a thirteen-year-old perhaps out of his endeavour to make me stand out in the crowd. I had thought years back that this man was mad!
For the last three years, I have been unintentionally pondering over the question that the man had asked me that day.
Who am I?
As I spend hours over this question, I come up with the same answer every time – I come up without an answer.
In an effort to live up to the expectations of my family and my teachers, I realise I have lost myself somewhere in the sands of time.
As I don’t have the right to think for myself, I don’t have the right to take my own decisions. As I don’t have the right to take my own decisions, I don’t have the right to speak my own words. As I don’t have the right to speak my own words, I don’t have the to execute my own actions. As I don’t have the right to execute my own actions, I don’t have the right to be humane even though I’m a human being.
Frankly speaking, life has thrown in ample opportunities to mechanize me into a robot. However, in the tug of war between my heart and my brain, my heart fortunately won by inches. Today, my heart has the ability to overpower my brain. Yesterday I was lost among the crowd. Today, that man has made me stand in the forefront by recognizing my inner self.
Thus, today I can say it with pride that I am Strong because I know what it feels like to be Weak.
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Yashu. I think you spend a little more time with yourself . you are associated with the people who might be influencing your decisions .
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When you can’t finance yourself, you will have to be patient enough to just pretend to lose your identity so that you can preserve your real self for a DHAMAKA in the future! ๐
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I wasnt talking about finance part yashu . i read your last line which was what i was talking about. Im ceo im bill gates is materialistic. When you say i’m strong ,im leader in my own role, im resilient now that reflects real you.
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Yashika;
I thoroughly acknowledge your thinking;
“Wait & watch is the right policy” in some of the situation.
“Make hay while sun shines”
Simple meaning of this proverb;
“To act and work while an opportunity exists; to take action while the situation is favorable”.
You are smart and intelligent enough to understand the meaning of both the phrases; Do I need to say, whenever you need any moral support, please feel free to contact me( through my blog’s comment section on recent or previous post, I will be there).
Wishing you all the best………………
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I am lucky to have found my confidant in you. Thank you for supporting me. ๐
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It will be better for Yashu to get out of the house and have “me” time. Because family members tend to make the decision for her out of concern. Because they think it is the best for her. I can understand that completely.
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Thank you, Yoshiko. ๐
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Welcome ๐ Yashika. I know how painful it is to be caged within.
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For me is “Voiceless” in my poetry.
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Yashika, i dont know your situations and why you dont have rights to execute but i am happy that your heart is winning over ur brain. So from now take suggestions from brain and do what ur heart says. Use both in same direction n u wll b happy. Live fullest and be optimistic.
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Thank you for understanding me. ๐
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You’re welcome
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Good night!
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Same to you & have a sweet dreams;
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Hey hello Yashika ๐ Was passing through random blogs !!
Glad meeting you, and I really really liked this post!! ๐
Written so honestly ..!!
Following you, and happy to be in touch ..
I had written a poem , generalising who we all are !!
https://samjothsashidharan.wordpress.com/2015/02/02/a-tinge-of-me/
Read and let me know,
and yes, I welcome you to my space !!
See you around !! ๐
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Thank you for reading my post.
It’s a pleasure to meet you. And, I will definitely read your post as soon as I’m free. ๐
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My pleasure and do stay in touch ๐
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At your age, where you stand, what you feel is not abnormal. Parents tend to be overbearing, this is common in our country. But thank god, you don’t have to fend for yourself from the age of 13! We have a strong support system here, and trust me you will understand this as you grow, emotionally and otherwise too. The world is round. Enjoy each phase, and there is always time to do these things later on in life, things you can’t do now.
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Yeah right. However, I do get tormented sometimes!
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That’s a part of growing up. Do not kill your personality though. Keep yourself afloat.
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My personality is who I am. I can’t destroy myself by ruining my personality. ๐
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My point exactly.
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Thanks for helping me out! ๐
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Anytime, simply knock ๐
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Yup!
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Good yasu.. You can write up here can’t check mail? Still in Mars?
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No, I’ve changed my location, you see. I’m presently based in the Adromeda galaxy! ๐
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Oh that’s great my dear.. Finally you will find me in your mail box on the earth ๐
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I said Adromeda galaxy, not Milky Way.
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Oh.. I’m confused
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Great! Which other language do you speak apart from English? ๐
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I can speak Martian language, venusian, little German.. English I’m learning..
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Umperenna?
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Oh this is tamil
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Yup!
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noku tamil teriumo?
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No. I don’t know Tamil. ๐ฆ
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then how do u write?
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I only know ‘What is your name?’ and ‘My name is Yashika’.
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Oh, oh! that’s great, mey hindi nai malum ๐ฆ
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Okay. Let’s speak in English!
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๐ haha perfect! how is it going your preparation for the xams dr?
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I’m revising. ๐
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good luck again! what you want to be ..? i mean what is your idea about the future ?
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I’m planning to take up engineering.
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Oh that’s great! Welcome aboard!
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Are you an engineer???
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Oops..You din’t read about me? you see I have blog too ๐ haha
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I’m using the android app. Therefore, I can’t read your about page. ๐ฆ
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oh, ok that’s fine ๐ I can understand!..im writing an interesting post Part III of soul mates series ๐
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Looking forward to read it! ๐
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yup in 10 mins ๐ you may not like it ๐ haha
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Why do you think I won’t like it?
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Experience speaks! ๐
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Now I’m even more excited to read your post! ๐
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haha ๐ thanks for your support. Don’t expect more, might be comedy as well ๐
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I don’t read a post with an expectation. I mesmerize after reading it. ๐
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haha ๐ oh that’s nice
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Thanks…. What about you? What do you expect from a post?
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I expect something useful out the fruit out there! ๐ Even it might be ur experience or something u learned, unless I won’t feel any good on it.
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That’s great. So, what do you find or expect from my posts?
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I told you, you speak from your heart of your experience and it somehow resonates with my experiences as well, and it gives me a learning too ( not only to you)
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I feel blessed. ๐
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Published new post!
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I’ll read it soon!
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Thanks Yashika! Thanks for your support! btw what is meaning of yashika?
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Yashika means successful.
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nice
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https://yashika194.wordpress.com/2015/03/14/creative-blogger-award-my-third-award-as-a-blogger/
Congratulations! I’ve nominated you for the Creative Bloggers Award! You are not obliged to accept it. However, I’ll feel happy if you acknowledge this award!
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Thank you so much dear, I accept it. But difficult to follow the rules ๐
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Lol! My pleasure! ๐
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๐ Exams over? see I remember you ๐
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Nope! It’s my break time!
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That’s good, Hey I thought you wont come here..but u kept blogging and hiding from me ๐ Haha I found out you have been here ๐ I thought u wnt be here for 2 months ๐ haha
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I can’t stay away from writing! ๐
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๐
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I am Mechanical Engineer but now I work on the software related to mechanical industry
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Cool!
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Yup, my final year project as on cool only ๐ cooling of micro level electronic components! Hhaha Cool!
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Lol! Why don’t you become a comedian? You’ll do great! ๐
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Really? But people should not cry lol
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Lol
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Emperu iku
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Emperu Yashika!
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adade..epadi ma kandu pidicha? enaku terium nu..
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Ab iska kya matlab hai?
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i meant how to you speak in tamil!
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I picked this up from my friends who are Tamils.
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oh that’s great. in fact last night i din’t read it properly and thought it was some Martian language..now i understood ๐
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Lol
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๐ Don’t laugh! It’s not that big joke! Best yet to come! LOL
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I actually laughed about writing Tamil in a non-sensible manner. ๐
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Hey, did you take it serious? lol.. I meant it was joke but not a big one which I am yet to spell out ๐ you may encounter more than this ๐ haha
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I didn’t mind at all! ๐
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like you ๐
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Why?
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I thought u took it serious and been hurt ๐ but u dint ๐
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I’m not that boring! ๐
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I can see ..a cool person in you,,and one more thing you speak right from ur heart in posts! keep it up
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Thank you! I’m humbled. That’s very sweet of you!
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I wont talk a person if i don’t like the post that much..you see!
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Really? ๐ I can’t help but smile…
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๐ yup words speaker louder than actions? or reverse i dont know haha..you seemed to be a bold and open minded, ambivert..:)
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Should I take it as a compliment? ๐
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You want me reiterate again? or order to take it ๐ haha
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As you wish! ๐ lol
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you should take it as compliment! Order ๐
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Thank you!!!!
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Welcome!
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As you wish! ๐
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And this is every teenager’s story these days.
We lost ourselves in fullflling other people’s expectations. ๐
You write amazing.
keep it up.
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You’re right. Unfortunately, most of us are compelled to go through this situation.
Thank you!
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